WELCOME TO THIRTY AND TRYING

Last Friday-- it’s hard to believe it was just a week ago, my ex and I dropped off our son at daycare together. It was the first time we did a drop-off together since we separated. I think we both knew subconsciously it would be the last time we’d be taking my son to d...

After a bit of a hiatus, I decided to go back to therapy. I’m a big fan of therapy— I’ve been going on and off since I was nine. And I’ve had all sorts of therapists— fantastic ones who literally saved my life and brought me back from the brink of trauma, teaching me c...

Disappointment is such a complicated emotion. For me, I can feel it everywhere in my body. From the back of my throat— the desperation of tears welling and the choking response that comes as a result — all the way down in my gut, leaving me feeling both off-balance and...

The holiday decorations have been put away (which consisted of a single wreath), the new year diet has commenced (which looks a lot like the holiday diet), and around this time of year is when life should start resembling some sort of normalcy… except it’s not. Ladies...

This week is full of milestones for me. Last Sunday would have been my first Mother’s Day. This weekend would have been my due date. Both dates are significant reminders of a life that could’ve been. It’s also been six months since we received the phone call that would...

This past Monday, my Grandpa Al passed away. He lived 87 years to the absolute fullest, but he had been sick for the past several months. Nonetheless, his passing came as a shock. 

Strangely enough, I received the news about Grandpa mere minutes after I finished the fir...

Let’s talk about sex, baby (sorry, I couldn’t help myself there). But, sex after pregnancy loss (not to mention body issues) are very real things that no one really likes to talk about. Maybe it’s because it’s a double taboo. But, I’m here to tell you that my sex life...

Today marks three months since we ended our pregnancy. That means I’ve been without her for  just as long as she was growing inside me. I doubt anyone besides my husband is aware of this significance. And truthfully, I’m not even sure he’s aware of the date. It’s been...